Sometimes things happen that you can’t explain. Everything clicks, but you have no idea how it happened. Last week I had just that. It was Wednesday evening I was in bed thinking about my relationship that just ended and this blog that needs a different name, when I heard it. In my right ear, where during the day I carry a hearing aid, I heard wolves howling… It was literally the strangest thing. I kept listing and a while later I heard it again. The sound was coming from within my ear, and sounded far away.
The next morning I totally forgot about it. Until, I started seeing pictures of wolves on Facebook and between the pictures of beautiful nature that I was searching for, for this blog. Apparently, the Universe had a message for me.
I started looking into wolves, like how they behave and learned more about the wolf as a spirit animal like a lot of people believe we all have. I got Goosebumps all across my body. The things I read I could copy and paste to my life at this moment.
Wolves stand for intuition, trust, wisdom, communication and freedom.
All week already, I got messages to follow my intuition. I did so that Monday, following a voice from within telling me to do something. Following that voice, even though I had no idea how it would turn out to be, felt great. Like you are 100% sure you have to do something. It also made me realise I have to follow my intuition more often. I usually know up front, if an appointment is going to be met or not. I just don’t always act on it, because I can’t explain how I know I have to cancel or postpone and I hate lying.
So then there is trust. Trust is something I lack. I don’t have trust in myself and therefore not always in others too. But the most I lack self-confidence and self-esteem. Trust that I am able to do things. Trust that I am going to be successful. Trust that I am worthy. Trust in life, trust in people. Trust to follow on my intuition. You get the picture. I am very good in putting myself down. Let’s just say I am a work in progress at that area.
Wisdom we can all figure, right. But then it starts to get interesting, communication and freedom. For a wolf his family, the pack, is very important. He will not fight if he doesn’t have to, but he will defend his family with his life. The pack gives a feeling of community. Still, he makes sure he doesn’t lose his identity with the pack. To make sure of that, a wolf goes out on his own every now and then. In that time of isolation, he goes back to his own identity, learns more about himself, does what he thinks is important and what he likes. He experiences true freedom doing his thing!
When the wolf is gone, the pack misses him. That’s one of the reasons they howl. Still, the lone wolf that went away for a while can hear the howling, but will only return when he is ready to return. When he does so, the pack greets him with happiness and joy!
This just totally clicked with me. It reminded me of what had happened in my relationship. And it also made me think about how we don’t approve on this in society while actually, if somebody wants to take time on his own, why shouldn’t we let him? Why is it the norm to always be together? Because we are afraid to lose the other person? Because we are afraid to be on our own? Fear usually is the base of our actions, where it should be love. Love for the other person to do what he needs to do. If he needs time to get to know himself better, to gain back on his passions, the things he likes to do, why shouldn’t we let him do so? It will make that person a better person in understanding himself. When the wolf does come back from his alone time, he can be fully there for the pack again.
There is something what they call: Wolf Medicine. The quality of the wolf is that he is able to learn new ideas, insights and experiences. He does so in his alone time and when he gets back he teaches those ideas and insights to the pack. That’s in fact what I do as well. I share my ideas, inspirations, experiences and insights through Facebook and this blog. Hoping to give somebody else some inspiration or light in dark times. I read that a wolf showing up in your life has to do with creative writing as well. And then this all happens the week after I launched this blog…
Sometimes you can’t explain how things happen, but you can only be grateful for the experience, insights and the wisdom you gained. Even though I thought about it a lot, I still don’t have a new name for this blog. Maybe Wolfs Medicine would be a nice one. What do you think?